Patience – Concussion – part 5


Catherinanne here, for Kevin.  It has been a good, but difficult day.  We are grateful for the small surprises and joys that continue to bear us up in the midst of this, and for the care and concern you have shown. 

As usual, when one is following God’s will (or trying to), and living with joy even in the midst of challenge and/or difficulty, it seems that things will pop up that threaten that joy and peace.  Some might call that Murphy’s Law, but it certainly raises questions when it seems to happen regularly or in trends.  I have had many joys, particularly following some hard work and preparations for the January 27th Feast of St. Angela Merici, which Brescia will celebrate as a community January 25th through 28th.  There is hard work to come throughout those days, but things are coming together in beautiful (and providential) ways.  It should be no surprise to me then that as I went to put together and serve Kevin dinner, with perfect joy in my heart, a container would implode and I would lose a good part of it all over the floor!  I think, even in the midst of that, I kept a sense of humour, managed to keep joy, and to face the rest of the evening with at least some semblance of the joy I had previously felt.  (I confess I might have cursed as it happened.)  When we patiently bear with one another – in all things, and through all things – God will bless us abundantly. 

If I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give away all my possessions, and if I hand over my body so that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth.

Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.  Love never ends.

1 Corinthians 13: 2-7

 

And now, in Kevin’s words:   

A waiting person is a patient person. The word patience means the willingness to stay where we are and live the situation out to the full in the belief that something hidden there will manifest itself to us.

Henri J.M. Nouwen

 

Today I saw the doctor for a follow up. It has been a long 2 and a half weeks and I was hoping for some news that would allow me to get back to some sense of regular day-to-day life.

The doctor agrees that I have made some progress. That being said, I have not made as much progress as I (or she) would like. While I do have some stretches of the day with no symptoms, I have yet to have a full day symptom-free. Apparently that’s not good. While the doctor agrees that I should ease myself back into work, she does not agree that it should begin this week coming. She has written a further note asking that I stay off work for at least one more week. She will see me back at her office next week to reevaluate.

I am very frustrated by all this. The thought of another week or more in a room, in darkness, no screens, no books — all boredom — does not excite me. That being said, it is pretty clear, I am not yet ready to resume work or play. Your continued prayers would be most appreciated.

Therefore, since we have been made righteous through his faithfulness, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.We have access by faith into this grace in which we stand through him, and we boast in the hope of God’s glory. But not only that! We even take pride in our problems, because we know that trouble produces endurance, endurance produces character, and character produces hope. This hope doesn’t put us to shame, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.

Romans 5: 1-5

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  1. I feel you Kevin,

    I have been in your shoes a few times in my journey.

    I thought l was a very patient person until l had to be patient with myself and my body in order to heal after my car accident of 2009.

    My observation of my circumstances were that l had patience for others in the world, however the most difficult person for me to be patient with was myself.

    I meditated & prayed upon this and asked God why this was so difficult for me. To be patient with my body and myself.

    In God’s loving and special way it was revealed to me that one of life’s biggest challenges is to be patient with one’s self.

    So l decided to treat myself as l would my best of friends if they were experiencing the same situation.

    Doing and approaching my situation in that spirit taught me so much about self care and self acceptance.

    I will continue to hold you and Catherinanne in my prayers….remember to be patient with yourself.

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