Well, in the wee hours of yesterday I was still awake, not having gone to sleep at all. I offered some reflection on that subject yesterday – perhaps that process of writing about it “unruffled” my mind who knows, but last night I was asleep before midnight and up at 5:30 AM. It is more likely that I may be overworking the whole thing. That, in fact, having been up most of the night before my body gladly collapsed into the bed and got it’s necessary rest. All I know is that if I was to look to quote anyone on the subject of sleep today it would have to be D.H. Lawrence.
“ And if tonight my soul may find her peace
in sleep, and sink in good oblivion,
and in the morning wake like a new-opened flower
then I have been dipped again in God, and new-created.”
Odd as it sounds, given my sleeplessness just 24 hours ago, I feel so very well rested and refreshed. Last night did indeed feel like sinking “in good oblivion.” I can say that the abeyance I was afforded was a God granted dreaminess. I awoke, albeit earlier than I am used to, refreshed and renewed. I love the expression of D.H. Lawrence that I do feel this morning as thought “I have been dipped again in God, and new created.” Dipped again in God! How wonderful. It is as though is a cool pool on a hot and tiring summer day. It is such a baptismal image. We profess the renewal that comes to the beleaguered soul in baptism as we dip ourselves into the baptismal waters. Refreshed, renewed, resurrected we emerge from the font “awoken” and ready to take on the journey of anew day. I think that Lawrence’s image of that sense of rest and renewal is clearly rooted in his theology. You see, I think it is not God’s doing that I could not sleep 24 hours ago. I don’t think God just knocked me out last night either. But indeed, Lawrence is right, there is a peacefulness that the human soul must reach in order to achieve good rest. I continue to work at that discipline, but I celebrate the episodes of success like last night as a brief but wonderful visit with peace, quiet, rest and God’s grace. I will continue work to allow myself to “be dipped again in God.” As a person of faith it is crucial that I work to be “re-created” every day.
[On a different note it is 7:05 AM and the sun is still not up. It feels like the natural time to “fall back.” But alas Mr. Bush signed legislation in 2005 that has dictated that beginning this year we will not “fall back” until the first Sunday in November. This in-turn was adopted by most provinces in Canada for obvious reasons of commerce and business. So while it may feel like the natural time to get to our fall clock ritual, we shall have to wait a little longer and fight the dark in the morning hours for an extra little bit. God Bless America.]